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</3 For years and years now I've never stopped loving you,

You were the one who always knew how to make me smile,and always knew how to make me cry.

This time you went so far into breaking my heart I feel as if shall never heal. You had fallen in love with someone I despise most and it seems you don't care one bit that you broken my heart.

I try to be happy for you but anger and jealousy overcomes my happiness.

Ever chance you get you ask me why I am upset becaue the tears in my eyes begin to show.

I look into his eyes afraid to tell him my real feelings,so instead I just say"I guess you'll never know..."

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Life really is confusing.  Sometimes you wish you weren't alive to deal which all the crazy shit.  You have to make decisions that make other people upset which sooner or later haunt you in your dreams.  When you do something wrong that hurts someone you wish you could take it back but it is to late and nothing will make it better no matter what.  Your friends leave you when you turn bitchy and whine so much just to get attention that you don't even need.

 

P.S- I really hate myself sometimes:(

 

Today Derren was at the playground.  At first I was mad but then I felt sorry for him, so I go over to him and we talk then I just ask him if we can be friends again.  He agree then we started to have so much fun but then I remembered that earlier that day his mother told me he was trafering to a wareham school.  In 3 days he will be gone and no i'm sad about it.

P.S- I'm really upset:(

Recently I have just posted a bunch of photos that you might reconize.  Some of them are my friends on buzznet(boys) I put there pics up to show how much I apreciate their friendship and if I don't have your pic up yet I'll really try my best to get them.

Yesterday this boy named Derren keeps trying to get revenge on me and my friends.  I knew one day he was gonna' blow because I've known him since  1st grade but he still is a lil' b*tch.  I can't stand him.  Yesterday my friends and I were at the playground and he kept messing with us so we had to grab sticks to make him think we were going to hit him but we actually wouldn't.  Later on he did the most grosses thing unless you think peeing in a bottle and mixing it with dirt in a big gatorade bottle is not gross.  He actually got some of it on my friend Kyla and he poured the whole entire bottle all over my body.  My parents were so ticked my dad almost came over and started a riot!  I love my dad because he so pretective and if any boy messes with me he will literally blow.  Now he can't come to the playground anymore. HAHA you stupid animal.  I really could care less when he threw pee on me it was my friends he messed with and that's what crossed the line.  Now he is trying to destroy my friends lives in school.

P.S I hope he dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!